Mitosis

I need to be happy
Without it i remain black
Until the day i die

I need her to be happy
She guards the light
Which lifts me from this lie

I can't be happy
Forces move against me.
My dark protection fades

I can't be happy
Without her, misery rises
And suicide efforts become my days.

Chorus
There's not way out
I could just cry
There is not answer
The only way is to die

I'm torn between the fear, the hate
I'm torn between the love, the light
Trying to choose black or white
In a world of grey

-5/30/95